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April 26th, 2009

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February 20th, 2009

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February 2nd, 2009

10:53 pm follow-up with mcgookey tomorrow results from the mri, eeg, and blood work i'm scared and i'm anxious 3pm seems ages away Current Mood: anxious

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January 26th, 2009

09:35 am - why bother? i'm single think what you want, but i don't tolerated being cheated on especially when he calls the girl over to his house at 11:30pm especially when she throws herself all over him at every opportunity as for the medical bullshit.. i had an eeg and blood work done last week, while pulling the lab they hit my radial artery so i now have a miniature hematoma tomorrow is another mri the 3rd is a follow-up with the neurologist the 9th i go to tampa for an appointment at the movement disorder clinic on usf's campus and due to tongue fasciculations i might be dead in four months hah, hows '09 going for you guys? Current Mood: idon'tevenknowanymore Current Music: okay i believe you but my tommy gun don't

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January 16th, 2009

02:07 pm - my head is spinning... spent a few hours at lee memorial hospital last night yay for random convulsions still no diagnosis still no hope Current Mood: apathetic

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January 15th, 2009

09:52 am seizures, strokes?, tremors, temporary paralysis, migraine, muscle weakness, joint pain, pain upon being touched, dizziness, fainting, loss of appetite, weight loss, hair loss, random loss of feeling in forearms, tingling/burning/pins and needles sensations in arms and legs, etc. i can't even function anymore i don't even want to attempt to function anymore either fix me of fucking kill me cause living like this is miserable Current Mood: cynical Current Music: mc chris

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December 13th, 2008

05:01 pm - life, or a ceasing of it i had a seizure last night while wearing a heart monitor, so maybe they'll be able to pull some info from that i'm sick of not having a diagnosis, of having to miss out on my senior year, of all this shit most of all, i miss everyone it gets old sitting at home everyday lets kill time together? Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: trivium

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October 17th, 2008

06:26 am good news? i don't need brain surgery bad news? i'm still undiagnosed and the fuckers are just kinda giving up i know i'm a medical fuckup and all, but seriously? Current Mood: exhausted

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October 12th, 2008

12:39 am i'm homebound and i might need brain surgery senior year really isn't turning out how i hoped it would at least grant is finally off probation Current Mood: tired Current Music: we are winning - flobots

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September 4th, 2008

08:09 pm its mind numbing to be told at the age of 17 that you may not live to see your 21st birthday to hear those words said in such a serious setting, actually said by a doctor.. it just makes you realize how limited our time here really is and how we shouldn't take anything for granted although the diagnosis isn't definite and it may all turn out to be a false alarm, i'm still scared shitless some more testing over the next week or so and we'll see if the neurologist guessed correctly lets hope he didn't Current Mood: numb Current Music: killswitch - as daylight dies

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April 29th, 2008

01:56 pm i got my blood drawn again today, might be getting more blood work done tomorrow soo much fun -.- i miss my friends i feel like i'm getting closer to one or two people but losing touch with the rest i want it to be like it used to, when everything was so relaxed and everyone always got along but i guess thats one of the prices you pay as you get older i dunno, i'm done rambling basically, if you're reading this and want to chill, get in touch with me! i would love to spend time doing something other than visiting doctors and working Current Mood: dizzy

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April 13th, 2008

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February 8th, 2008

09:30 pm for the record: asthma flares lasting over 72 hours blow as does having to fight for each breath for 12 hours >.< yay for double breathing treatments, asthma 'roids, and anti-inflam/rescue inhalers blah. btw, being on 'bedrest' also blows =] Current Mood: ow. Current Music: when everything falls - haste the day

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January 26th, 2008

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January 17th, 2008

05:09 pm I can't remember ever being this exhausted in my life, but my grades have gone back to the As they should be! I'm not going to let all this bullshit get in the way of my making a future for myself; I've worked too goddamn hard to let that happen. Hope you all did well on midterms, Kelsea PS--4 weeks till I only have to get shots every other week. =D Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: The Future Freaks Me Out-MCS

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January 10th, 2008

07:04 pm well, all this was supposed to be a big secret but if i don't get it out somehow i am going to fucking implode: A--i am being tested for leukemia B--if i am diagnosed with it, there is a great chance my body won't be able to handle the chemo C--i don't want to die D--grant is going to jail/going back on home detention hope 2008 is starting out better for the rest of you. love, kelsea Current Mood: fuck. Current Music: otep

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January 4th, 2008

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December 27th, 2007

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October 25th, 2007

03:29 pm neurologist november 9 i'm not allowed to get my shots or take my allergy meds until then it sucks, i've been having sinus problems again the meds they have me on for the tremors make me tired i'm always tired, yet at night i can barely sleep my mom's constantly worried about me she's always commenting on how pale and tired i look she's always telling me to eat or sleep i'm amazed i still have straight a's but my teachers have been extremely forgiving about my late work and absences i got my schedule changed so i could have a lunch and take my meds before i get shaky it is now: 1 AP English Mattoni 2 Psych 1 O'Brien 3 ASL 1 Orjuela 4 APES O'Brien 5 Amer. Hist. Hon Bray 6 Alg II Hon Cooke 7 Anat and Phys Hon Minich the only good news is when, if they do, find out whats wrong with me i can probably stop taking them, and stop being tired all the time, and most of all stop being a medical mystery Current Mood: tired

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October 18th, 2007

10:35 am well, blood work came back negative. they prescribed a new med to stop the tremors. i have to stop taking my allegra and singular to see if thats causing it. we're looking for a neurologist who takes patients under 18 and our insurance. the only one we've found can't see us until december 11 cause she only works 24 hour weeks. must be nice. my dad took me off the schedule at work for the rest of the week. i'm allowed to go to school monday =D the thought of seeing a neurologist scares me. i'm sick of being a medical mystery. Current Mood: shakingg.

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